A lesson from my Angel...

I am really not in the mood to blog tonight after a day like Today! I started another "diet"...not really a diet but a life style change. Day one is always hard. I was grumpy most of the morning because I had 2 poppy seed muffins in the pantry and a half pan of brownies on the counter. No way to start out any diet/life style change. I gave into my weakness and had a small brownie and half of one muffin. (Noah didn't build the Ark in a day, right?) Me and a group of women have started another blog just for this subject. Called: From the Inside Out 9. I am hoping with their help and encouragement, my weight loss "burden" will become a thing of the past.
Next, I have thought of my friend that is on our cruise, on and off throughout the day..."She's probably in Cabo, eating a gourmet 7 course meal while sailing on the ocean looking at a beautiful sunset right now." Why do I do this to myself? Yeah, its been one of those days!
And last, after a month and a half of waiting to hear from another company if Matt could possibly have a job...they asked us to wait until Friday...Just say it already, "You've gone with someone else!" Please stop the mind games. :)
My point is this, sometimes it takes some one younger and wiser to make us realize that this life is all about learning what it is the Lord needs us to learn. Kamri did our F.H.E lesson tonight on gratitude. She asked me what "Gratitude" means to me. I said, "it means to be grateful for what we HAVE and not what we WANT." There are days I feel totally ungrateful.
If I were a stranger walking by my house, looking through the window, I would see a Husband and a Wife that love each other unconditionally. I would see food on the table and clean clothes in the closets. I would see brother and sisters playing and laughing with each other. I would see a picture of Christ, Our Savior hanging on the wall as Guardian over this house.
The day to day trials we face may seem hard in the moment. But I know that when the Savior returns to this earth, I will look at Him and I will shout, "It was all worth it."

Being Grateful for what you have

So, tomorrow Matt and I should be leaving for California. This coming week we should be sailing to Mexico. We are in the 5th month of being unemployed. I thought by canceling our cruise that Matt would have received a job by now. It is so hard not knowing from one day to the next. That is one thing I took for granted when Matt was employed. I could plan my future. I knew what I would be doing tomorrow, next week, and next month. This trial has made me aware that you should never get to comfortable. Right now, I'm really uncomfortable.